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Journey to Joy

It’s not how you finish the journey but how you handle the journey.
This life will throw your perspective right back  to you. The world we live in is actually an individual reflection of your conscious mind.
Now it’s called a journey for a reason, particularly my Spiritual journey.
My journey of self realisation happened when I was in Treatment getting clean. The amount of Spiritual occurrences during my time in Treatment were insurmountable but it wasn’t until I was at home with technology for the first time in months, I learned what all of these things meant. One day whilst sitting in my back garden I seen the most stunning dragonfly, that seemed to dance around me. One hour later as I sat at my laptop wondering what all this meant and just like that a series of synchronised events and my Spiritual journey began.
When I hear it’s a cruel world or life isn’t fair, I simply remember all I’ve been through and how I survived 100% of my bad days. Let me explain..
Homelessness, drug addiction, depression, suicide attempts are just a few of the events that almost broke me but didn’t. In fact i say Thank You to all of my struggles as i do my happiness because no matter what the event, you’re going to learn something from it.
Tomorrow I bury my beautiful Daddy and there are so many things I am grateful for to have such a Father. So yes at times events will happen that may or may not throw you but just pause for a minute, meditate and think how do I want to handle this. It is such a wonderful way to live and in my opinion it’s a wonderful world. How do you see your world?

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Now is the beauty of the Unknown

“Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender, be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love – for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth. Nurture strength of spirit to shield you from misfortune. But do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labours and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.”

Max Ehrmann

Having broken down the barriers of living and being the victim of my past or the ultimate anxiety of the future, I came to an obvious but magical conclusion … The magic of life is in the Now. For living in the Now, helps me bungee jump into the unknown. The freedom of this conclusion has been life altering and has sent me packing on a voyage of self discovery. I have discovered many things about myself, one of which is my ability to create…. What me create??- Yeah right is what I would have said. All of the years I spent trying my utmost to be everybody else but myself. Not being comfortable in your own skin is well…uncomfortable!! It changed the course of my life for many a decade. I would be, do, have, not have and shape shift into whatever that day, person, career or circumstance needed me to be. Yes I was successful…at first glance but I was going further and further down that rabbit hole. So far that I no longer recognised myself when I looked in the mirror. In fact the mad batter made more sense than I did! To put it in a nutshell, When my mouth moved, I was lying.

So that day when I had my impactful Aha moment of living in the Now, was the day that changed my life. I was free from my addictions, afflictions and most of all my fear and selfishness. These days I replace the word selfish with selfull, where I fill my cup so much so that I am there for family and friends, like I never was before.I had been a nerve wracking nervous belly all of my life and here I was completely surrendering to the unknown and living in the Now. This is my sweet spot where all of my decisions are made and my life is truly lived. It has been so freeing that sometimes I feel like William Wallace screaming “Freeedommmm” at the top of my lungs. Ok the neighbours think I’m a bit of a but but guess what these days I really don’t care what people think or say about me. My past is my past for a reason, it no longer defines or shapes who I am. Living in the Now allows me to explore all that I never thought possible. I take each day as it comes and if needs be I take it second http second and minute by minute.I go with the Universal flow and know that I am a survivor. Nothing, nobody can stop me these days. All thanks to my spiritual path, of which I know all things are possible.

So today I say to you Are you willing to live in the Now? What is it that drives you, Inspires and motivates you? Remember to be inspired is to be inspired is to be in-spirit!!

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